- -would like to make something beautiful, and would, if I felt no grief, or maybe I can even so?.. will I ever have peace of mind, I wonder and will I ever believe I've found the right way (here many quotations come up to my mind such as "Circus" by Lenny Cravtiz, but I don't want to let them in, they are too gloomy for this day) had a dream, well, it was more like thoughts of a story, or even two stories, one was about Lady Pain and Shibohime and some other woman who I decided to call Mary, and the other was about don Transeunte, I mention it here-now just to remember, they still have a chance to be composed I will not try to make any summary of the passing year, or plans for the future, instead I better think over what I will need and what I have to leave behind and I nedd to remember some old rules, one of those is that there are no ends, because nothing ends.